Posts Tagged ‘sorrow’

I Need God’s Grace
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The Cross on Mt. Soledad in San Diego

This year more than past years remembering that Christ was called a man of sorrows acquainted with grief has ministered to me. “He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief…” (Isaiah 53:3)

I recognize more than ever that I need the Lord’s grace and tender mercies. I long for His healing touch.

Our Ongoing Mourning

My family and I continue to struggle with Hannah’s passing, or as we’ve begun to say her moving to heaven. Recently the thought occurred to me that it doesn’t matter if I get angry or sad or somewhere in between, none of that will bring my daughter back to me. As King David said after washing his face, changing his clothes and worshipping the Lord in reference to his son who had passed away in 2 Samuel 12:23, “Can I bring him back again? I shall go to him, but he will not return to me.”

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We Miss Our Beautiful Hannah, but We are Glad She is Celebrating Now

No matter how much I long for it, Hannah will not return to me. I do miss her every day. I do long to see her and hug her again.

These are some of the reasons why I love that the Bible says that Jesus was a man of sorrows acquainted with grief. I feel through all of this the Lord is saying to me in a very personal and tender way, “I know your pain, I know your anguish. Hannah’s death was not in vain.” What a wonderful comfort. What a wonderful savior!

The Pain of the Ultimate Loss
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Our family in Mexico City

A few weeks ago Dawn and I went to see the movie, The Shack. I read the book a number of years ago, but I didn’t remember the story all that well. I’m aware of the controversy surrounding both, but that is not my purpose for mentioning it here.

As I watched the movie with Dawn I was surprised by how much the story ministered to me. It touched me as I saw a father grapple with the loss of his daughter. His sorrow, his anger and even his disappointment with God. There was a point in the movie where one of the characters playing God said, “It’s not your fault.” That is something I’ve wrestled with in pondering the why’s behind Hannah’s passing. I too sensed during a time of prayer that the Lord said to me, “It’s not your fault.” I think they are words that I need to be reminded of often.

A father is supposed to protect his child from harm, so when the ultimate harm comes there is a sense of failure. I wasn’t able to protect and keep my daughter from the tragedy of death. That’s so painful! Thank you for the man of sorrows, who is acquainted with grief. Thank you for being there for me.

Thank you for this day when we remember how Christ suffered on the cross for our sins. Good Friday seems like an oxymoron when we consider what it is referring to, but as many have said before, “It’s Friday, but Sunday is coming. Hallelujah!”

This hope that we have in Christ. This hope that David declared in recognizing that one day he would go to see his son, that is the hope that sustains us! We give thanks to the Lord for such a wonderful hope!

In His Grip, Dave

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What a day! What a week!
Hannah, Dawn and Dave in TJ

Hannah, Dawn and Dave in TJ

When we live in this crazy world, and maybe even more so when we are on the front lines we get attacked.

Earlier this week a friend of ours, who is a wonderful Christian woman. She’s a great wife and mother. Dawn and I have grown to love them. Well, she took a wrong turn as she was taking her nephew to school, and ended up in a detention center.

Her husband has already spent thousands of dollars in lawyers fees trying to get every thing sorted out.

When I received the news on Tuesday of what happened I felt very sad. Tears welled up in my eyes, although I was with other friends so I held it in.

I feel for those that get hurt through the brokenness on the border. That’s one of the reasons God brought us here. To bring good news to the poor, and to repair the broken city.

Family Trials
my daughter Hannah's car

my daughter Hannah’s poor car

Today (Thursday) I felt like the enemy was coming after my family full on.

My daughter, Hannah called me at 6:30 in the morning, because she got stuck in the snow and ice. Someone ran into her, then another and another. When it was all over there were five cars involved in the accident.

Hannah was cold and afraid. I tried to keep her calm and give her hope. I know that our Lord protected her from further damage.

Then about when I was done helping Hannah, I got a call from Dawn that our son, Jonathan had a serious problem with his eye. His retina is detached.

Jon, Hannah & David Jr. having some fun

Jon, Hannah & David Jr. having some fun

The doctor wants to do an emergency surgery, but since my son ate lunch before he received this news, and they need to perform the surgery after 8 hours of fasting he decided to put the surgery off until Friday morning. Again I found myself sad, and the tears welled up.

My son, Jon will have an emergency eye surgery to repair his retina on Friday morning at 7:20 AM PST.

Someone once said that dogs don’t bark at parked cars. I do believe that one of the attacks our enemy uses is to try to discourage us while we are serving the Lord. I’m not sure that knowing that makes it any easier. It’s still painful to see those we love suffer.

God Gives me Hope

What does give me hope is knowing that somehow, someway God uses this for his glory and for our good. I’m reminded to keep my eyes on him.

Jesus said that, in this world you will have many troubles, but cheer up I have overcome the world. (John 16:33)

After I sent a note out to some friends today asking them to pray, a pastor friend sent me some encouraging verses, so I thought I would share them with you, and ask you to pray.

Isaiah 41:10 (NIV84)
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV84)
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Thanks for joining us on this journey of faith, and for standing with us in prayer.

In His Grip, Dave

DiasoLifeOnTheBorder.org